I’ve had one of those weeks. Simply put, it’s been a blue week, although Evie has a better word – one my Granny used to describe a certain type of weather, dull, miserable & grey. “Dreich”. Luckily, in South Africa she didn’t need to use it a lot, but it had its days. I have been working on my Jungle January project, having thought I knew what I wanted. Well….
So far I have 2 block toiles (adjustments, you know), 3 style toiles & all the accompanying paperwork and now a 3rd block underway. Something’s going wrong & I’m blaming it on this “blue week”. Nothing seems to be working. The toiles just aren’t fitting correctly, I don’t like the resulting styles on me & it’s all just getting me down. This morning I came across a tweet with a link to this article. Boy did it resonate with me today! If my pattern making isn’t working, there must be something I’m doing wrong, right? I’m obviously not good enough. Then this tweet from @SueHotchkis popped up in my twitter feed:
No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn’t trying.
Mistakes I have in droves, and progress has most certainly been slow! And boy am I trying, but that nagging thought was in the back of my head – “you’re not good enough”. I know I’m not the only one. How to overcome it though?
I had a 1-1 pattern cutting session with a student this afternoon that, in my current frame of mind I was, quite frankly, dreading. I’d probably have said all the wrong things & his hard work would have ended up a total waste of time, like the pile of paper & toiles in my room. Thankfully it went ok! The disaster he thought he had with his self-drafted trousers was not that bad, & looks to be able to be sorted with a few short steps, as with his waistcoat.
So I realised after he’d gone, maybe I wasn’t such rubbish afterall…